The Innocence of Michael Jackson

I woke up this morning with puffy eyes. I actually forgot that last night while the kids were in bed and Stino had fallen asleep, that I was able to finally cry freely.
I cried so much. I have not cried that much in such a long time.
I cried for Michael Jackson. I cried because in my heart, I know he was a good person. An Innocent man. I cried for all thosse nasty accusations against him. I just know they are not true. All for the name of getting his millions.
I wish that those that accused him would be feeling so ashamed of the horrible thing they did and also that they made their children lie....all for money. EVIL EVIL pieces of poo. But I know they are not ashamed or regret what they have done. I have always known Michael Jackson would never do those horrible things to children. To me he was a man who didn't have a childhood.
I recall watching a few days ago an interview where he said, he was the child inside watching the other children outside playing. Boy, can I relate to that one. For him it was that he had to practice his dancing, singing and for me, it was simply because my father would not let me go outside and play. That does do something to a person. It has for me and not that I want to try to relive being a child. But instead I let my children have a childhood. How sad I am at this very moment picturing myself inside watching the children play outside. I ask why did it have to be that way?
Why so much evil in this world??
I know what it is like to live with a physically abusive father. It sucks SUCKED big time. Every day I would pray for God to make me a better person. But I was a little girl. I wasn't bad. Why didn't my father see that?
Then I prayed and prayed for God to please just take me. I couldn't live that life anymore. But I did. And here I am just crying so much because I realize that this kind of childhood, affects everyone differently. I have not forgiven and forgotten but I have chosen to let it go and not overtake my life. But right now I can't help the way I feel that I just wish that this sweet man would not have gone so soon.
I know he was NOT a molester. I know the eyes of molesters. I have been molested by two men. One a neighbor and the other a bastard of a cousin. I know the eyes of a molester. Even when I am working, I know who is good and who is bad. They can be so good looking and charming, but I do know....
And I know Michael was good and INNOCENT.
There is a song Michael sings, called "Childhood"
To me that song says it all about his life. To hear it, you can download it here

Childhood by Michael Jackson
Written and Composed by Michael Jackson.
Produced by Michael Jackson.

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for the world that I come from
'Cause I've been looking around
In the lost and found of my heart...
No one understands me
They view it as such strange eccentricities...
'Cause I keep kidding around
Like a child, but pardon me...

People say I'm not okay
'Cause I love such elementary things...
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood
I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like pirates in adventurous dreams,
Of conquest and kings on the throne...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me,
Look within your heart then ask,
Have you seen my Childhood?

People say I'm strange that way
'Cause I love such elementary things,
It's been my fate to compensate,
for the Childhood (Childhood) I've never known...

Have you seen my Childhood?
I'm searching for that wonder in my youth
Like fantastical stories to share
But the dreams I would dare, watch me fly...

Before you judge me, try hard to love me.
The painful youth I've had

Have you seen my Childhood....